Fan Fiction |
by xtingtingx
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He could already hear the music just by standing outside her door. Instead of ringing the doorbell, he unlocked the door with his key. XM was on his lunch break, one that he now takes everyday since XY would have his head on a platter if he skipped a meal, and so he decided to visit XY at her apartment. He knew that she would be there working cuz that's what she told him earlier when he called. With a bag of food in one hand, he walked in the apartment.
XY was sitting at her desk, near the entrance to her balcony, engrossed in her drawing. Spread all over the coffee table were numerous clothing designs that she has already done. Taken up with drawing and painting ever since she was little, XY loved colors. Give her a box of colored pencils, she'll sit there all day and draw away. She has entered many competitions ever since she started drawing and, more often than not, she usually came out being the best one. Many of her works were hanging on her walls. Drawing different styles of clothing was a hobby she took up in high school. Given the chance in college, she decided to become a designer.
Even over the music, XY heard the door open and close. She knew it was XM since no one else had a key to her place. Since she was busy drawing the new design she just started, XY didn't bother looking up when XM walked into the room.
XM, walking towards XY: Hey beautiful, you still working?
XY, still looking at her work but smiled: I'm in a t-shirt and sweat pants and you can still call me beautiful. Your womanizing ways kicking in, XM?
XM, laughing: No. You're always beautiful to me.
XY, chuckling: Aww. That one definitely earned you a kiss.
Still laughing, XM leaned down to receive a sweet kiss from XY.
XY, finally looking up and smiling: Hi handsome. What are you doing here? Don't you have work?
XM, pouting: I missed you so I wanted to see you. Is there something wrong with me visiting my girlfriend, who, I have to say, is becoming a workaholic like the old me. (Handing XY the food) Which is why I brought you food so I won't have to visit you in the hospital.
XY, laughing: Aren't you just a sweet-talker today? And for your information, I was gonna go eat after I finish this part up.
XM: XY, I know you. You won't move until you've finished the whole thing.
XY, showing a guilty smile: I can't help it. I gotta finish these up as soon as possible.
XM: What are they for anyways? You've been at it for a while.
XY: My parents want me to apply for a job in New York since they're there. I'm putting together a portfolio now for an internship at Vera Wang. Thought I'd have more of a chance since she's Chinese, too.
XM: Wow. Vera Wang, huh? I told you you're gonna be famous one day and you never believed me.
XY: XM, I don't even know if I have the job yet. This is all part of applying. And working for Vera Wang doesn't mean I'm automatically a famous designer.
XM, smiling: Well, I'm proud of you either way. But I'm sure you'll amaze them with your talent. I'm gonna let you keep working and I gotta get back to the office as well. How about I come by later and we go out to dinner?
XY, smiling: Okay. Hopefully I'll have this done by then.
XM: Cool. Then I'll call you when I leave the office.
With a quick goodbye kiss, XM was out the door. After a very simple lunch, XY was again drawing away another magnificent design.
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XY walked out of the building in good spirits. She had completed 2 designs that day, which is quite an accomplishment for her. Because she always puts in the tiniest details to her drawings, it always took her a long time to do one.
Dressed in a yellow baby tee and a flowing white skirt that fell right above her knees, XY was on her way to meet XM for dinner. He had called earlier and they decided on a restaurant close to her so she can have more time to work.
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XM sat at the bar of the restaurant, waiting for XY to come. They had come here often since it’s near XY’s apartment. With a glass of scotch in one hand, XM was leaning back against the bar and keeping his eye on the door for XY to arrive.
A girl dressed in a tight, super short leather skirt and fire engine red low-cut halter top appeared right next to XM.
Girl, flirting: Hi XM. Haven’t seen you around in a long time.
XM, being polite: Hi. How’ve you been?
Girl, pouting and trying to look cute: Miserable because you don’t play with me anymore. I’m free right now, let’s go clubbing.
XM, still being a gentleman: Uh...Sorry, but I’m busy.
Girl, seductively: Aww, but I’ve missed you, XM.
All XM could do was give her a small smile. If this had happened a year ago, XM would be walking out of the restaurant with the girl in his arms. But the XM now is different. He’s got XY, and only XY, on his mind and in his heart.
Before XM knew it, the shameless girl leaned in to kiss him. Caught off guard, the kiss landed on his lips before XM can turn away.
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Right at the entrance of the restaurant, XY had just arrived. She glanced around to find XM since he had called to say he was already there. Her eyes fell upon a couple kissing by the bar. She wouldn’t have given a second thought, except the guy looked extremely familiar. When she caught his eye, she felt like her world had turned upside down.
She stood there, unable to move, for what seemed like forever. When she finally was able to sense her legs, she turned around quickly and ran out of the place.
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XM saw her. He looked at her straight in the eyes. He would have pushed the damned girl off of him, but he couldn’t. He felt like he was frozen in that position. The pain he saw in XY’s eyes stopped every feeling in him except for his heart, which felt like someone was squeezing it. His mind was screaming for him to go to her and explain, but he just couldn’t move. When he saw her rush out of the restaurant, he finally came back to his senses.
He pushed the girl off of him and ran. Ran after the love of his life.
XM, shouting: XIAO YOU!!
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She kept running and running. She didn’t know where she was going, just letting her feet take her wherever it wants to go. Really, she didn’t care either. The inside of her head was a mess.
‘How can XM do this to me? I thought he changed. At least if you’re gonna cheat on me, do it so I won’t find out, especially see you.’
Her mind went on and on. It got so bad she just wished there was a plug she can pull so her brain would just shut down. She didn't want to think. She just wanted peace and quiet.
Life was good…until she fell in love.
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XY was nowhere to be seen when he got out of the restaurant. He looked everywhere, but she was still no where to be seen.
It was already 10:30 at night. He’s been searching for her for a few hours.
‘Where can she be?’
He looked up to the sky, as if asking for answers. It was a cloudy night. The stars and moon were hidden behind the thick clouds.
‘Of course, something like this happens on the night without stars.’
It was the stars that brought them together, seems like even the stars were against them that night.
XM finally decided to go wait for her at the apartment. She’s got to go home some time, doesn’t she?
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She was tired. Emotionally, mentally, and physically. She lazily unlocked the door and walked in. She didn’t bother to turn on the lights. She walked over to the couched and plopped herself onto it. She was so drained that she didn’t notice that someone was sitting just two feet away from her.
XM, softly: Xiao you…
XY jumped up at the voice. She didn’t expect him to be here. His voice. Just hearing his voice brought the reality back. Brought flashes of him kissing another woman into her head.
XY, tears welling up in her eyes: Ximen, can you just give me a break? I’m really tired. Can we talk about this in the morning?
XM heard how exhausted she was, but he knew that if he didn’t fix things right then, he risked of losing her.
XM, sternly: No, XY, we have to talk about this now.
XY: What is there to talk about, XM? What happened happened already, we can’t changed the past.
XM: We can’t change the past, but we can control the future. What you saw today was a misunderstanding.
XY, getting angry and starting to raise her voice: How is it a misunderstanding?! Do you mean to tell me that what I saw with my own eyes didn’t happen?! That you weren’t kissing with that girl?!
XM, raising his voice as well: No, that’s not what I meant. The truth is that I didn’t kiss her, she kissed me.
XY, scoffed: Oh, and you want me to believe that?
It pained XM to hear her say that. Then again, his own history didn’t help much here.
XM: XY, I don’t know how to make you believe me. I thought we had enough trust in this relationship. I’m telling the truth. I was waiting for you and she just came up to me. I was caught off guard and then you came.
XY, sarcastically: Oh, I’m sorry for coming at such a bad time to ruin your moment.
XM, frustrated: I really don’t know what else to say. I really thought there was much more in this relationship. But I guess I was wrong. I know I’ve done a lot of things that I regret doing in the past, but I’ve changed now. And it was all because of you. For you, I want to become a better person. A person that you can be proud of, like how I’m so proud of you. Because of you, I let down my wall and let you in. You showed me how to love. But I guess it really doesn’t mean anything now. Really, XY, I really thought you believed in us more. What happened to the girl I fell in love with? The girl so strong, brave, understanding, and loving. What happened to my XY?
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Hoobastank – The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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Seeing that XY remained silent and that she didn’t seem like she was gonna say anything, XM got up to leave.
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hi guys, i'm back =) once again, no amount of apologies can make up for my extremely long absence. but here's the update! dont hit me now for the chapter, i promise i'll make up for it in the next one...which i promise will be up sooooon! =) enjoy. comments please. thanks.