Fan Fiction |
by yn_ean
“you!!!” she pinched me getting what I said.
“Ouch! Ouch! Help! Aaah!!” I laughed pushing my pillow to her as a protection.
“ok! I had it with you people! What is going on?” Megan marched toward us. She’s one of Mars actress.
“save me! She’s torturing me!” I pleaded for help.
“you started it Zaizai!!!...you’re green-minded…” she didn’t stop pinching him.
“why? What started it?” Megan (Lai Ya Yan) asked puzzled.
“she told me I was sleeping on---“she covered my mouth before I blurted it out.
“nothing…go back to sleep…” she said smiling at Megan.
“fine” Megan left.
I laughed so hard my stomach hurts.
“I’m jealous you have someone already…” she slowly said and turned to the plane window and slept ignoring me.
I was surprised. She was jealous. What does that mean? I shook my head and slept facing her nape. I brushed her hair, it was smooth and silky, I hope she could be mine, only mine and no one else. I felt a tear went down my cheek before I fell asleep, lost in the world of dreams.
Riding the plane and finding out you were hugging her already was normal to both of us. How many times did it happen already? I think it started when we went to Hong Kong for the Dior Star fashion party. I was her escort, she was my muse. Now I woke up finding her staring at me, face to face and my right hand was hugging her.
“cha an…”she whispered.
“cha an…” I whispered back sleepily. I got my hand of her and smiled.
“sorry for the hand…” I laughed.
“it’s alright you did it for a couple of times already…” she giggled.
“umm…bout what you said…that you’re jealous” I was curious. I don’t want her jealous when the truth she’s really the one I like.
“wei lun is beautiful…she’s good for you” she said patting my head.
“Jie! Aren’t you supposed to say she’s nice than beautiful?” I said joking and snatching her hand. I straightened up and so did she.
“ok…ok…my fault” she smiled “are you happy?” she added.
I was puzzled by her question. Is it normal to ask that?
“of course…” I said it more like of reminding myself or assuring me it was…I can’t tell her me and wei lun fight always, I can’t bear to see her worried for me.
She smiled
“get your things ready, we’re arriving any minute” she said straightening our plane pillows and blanket.
I love her. I can’t keep this forever; I have to tell her before I lose her, but what if our friendship is ruined? I can’t bear the thought of that.
My relationship with Wei Lun is a disaster. I don’t want her hurt, and I don’t want to lie to myself. I don’t love her, I never did, and we’ve been fighting almost everyday, she wants to tell the public already and I don’t want to. Sometimes we fight because of Da S, which I can’t understand why she’s acting like that, I never told her about my feelings for Da S and I never intended to.
“Zai…why can’t you tell the public?” Da S asked me when we’re in Japan for Mars and Meteor Garden promotion.
“I won’t…I can’t…and I don’t want to…”I said sulkily.
“but why? Don’t you love her?” was she trying to act like a counselor or someone to annoy me? I want to tell her I don’t love Xu wei Lun but this would only confuse her.
“I'm not sure…can we stop talking about her?” I want to forget her when I’m with you! I want to tell her the truth this time…I can’t hold on already…it hurts…
We were interviewed. I was not surprised when they asked me about Xu wei lun; I was pissed of. Not now, not beside her.
“did wei lun give you that ring on your middle finger?” one of the media asked. She did and I accepted it only because she was on the verge of screaming at me again if I won’t wear it.
To my surprise Da S spoke up.
“no…he bought it…like mine…” she showed everybody the ring on her right ring finger; it was a Cartier ring like mine also. “Zai likes to copy me…” she added.
I smiled and whispered thanks to her, she smiled back. Sometimes I think we have our own secret language.
“why did you deny it?!!! how dare she made up that statement!” wei lun said stomping her feet in front of me again.
“I didn’t deny it and I didn’t say anything” controlling my temper was one of the miracles that happened when I met this woman.
“don’t pretend like I'm not angry at you!! Why did Da S made it up?! Was she after you?!!!” I was surprised and angry already.
“I told her to! Don’t wrong her in front of me!!” I said about to march out away from her.
“Zai Zai!!!” she screamed after me…I drove away.
With these things happening to me, it’s impossible to be happy already, except for the time when I’m always with her. She manages to make me smile and make me forget all my problems. Now, I’m pretty sure I love her very much and I can’t imagine a life without her, I can’t even remember the life I had before she appeared in front of me. She always ask me if what’s wrong, why I always frown and staring blankly somewhere…I can’t tell her…I don’t want her to worry about me…she’s happy.
Then came this time I was expecting to happen. Me and Wei lun finally broke up, we ended that charade we even called a relationship.
I was happy I can’t explain why…maybe because I was free already.
Then my manager told me that I and Da S will be having a promotion in Guang Zhou. I was ecstatic to meet her. I have to tell her the truth…the truth that me and wei lun broken up already…and maybe I could tell her the truth about my feelings to her.
“hi…” I greeted her when we met at the airport.
“hi…” she smiled…but the smile…there was something wrong with the smile. I looked at her intently. Her eyes looked like she never stopped crying. She noticed I was looking at her that way that she avoided my glance and looked at the floor. Was there something wrong? She was never like this…when she smiles she makes sure she gives her all. There is something wrong!! In the plane, her manager went to get something and I stole the chance to sit beside her and talk to her for a moment.
“did you-“she stopped in the middle of her question when she saw me beside her.
“zai…why are you here?” she asked confused and in a weary tone. I just looked at her…stared at her for a moment. She averted her gaze.
“is there something wrong?” I was dead worried…why is she like this…I made her face me…
“please…”she tried to get my hands but I need to make her face me so I can clearly see her eyes without deception.
“ehemmm…where’s your seat zaizai?” I quickly freed her face from my hands when I heard her manager’s voice. I stood up and smiled at her manager.
“I just wanted to talk to her…” I said innocently with puppy eyes, maybe I can convince her that way…