| Fan Fiction |
by Zeey'
Genre: Romance, Angst.
Rating: PG-13
Warning:
1/ Over-possessive!Yun and Childish!Jae.
2/ Might not be the one you have expected. Full angst but can be read without crying, believe me; I know.
3/ un re-read / un-edited
Summary: Misunderstanding causes a big fight between the lovers and Yunho wished he had never done what he had done.
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The scene in front of his eyes made his blood boiled to its maximum temperature. His breathe hitched full with rage and his eyes don’t show anything but angst. Unconsciously, the designated glass drink he is holding breaks when he clutched it too hard beyond human strength. Blood gushed out from the injured part, gaining attention from the man sitting in front of him but the owner’s eyes remained fixed at the scene, fully unaware that he had hurt himself.
“Mr. Jung, are you okay?” DongHo, his business partner asked warily and followed the man gaze outside the elegant restaurant glass wall.
DongHo didn’t spot anything but two men walking really close to each other. Couple, he had assumed. One of them is shorter than the other one. He has short black hair and a very beautiful face to be considered as man’s face. Pale white skin and very beautiful eyes that shine as the red lips are pulled into a pretty smile. Meanwhile, the other man is slightly tall the short one, maybe a head taller who has tanned skin and had one of his arm around the shorter man’s shoulder. The shorter man giggled cutely when the taller one pulled him closer by the neck.
Slowly they disappeared from the view as both of them made their way inside a jewelry shop. Dongho didn’t anything unusual about that and he shrugged it off. He diverted his attention back to his client only to find that he is nowhere to be seen. “Mr. Jung?”
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Yunho fished his mobile phone and dialed the numbers nailed fresh inside his memory. After couple of rings, the familiar voice can be heard. Yunho transfixed his gaze at his lover across the mall, who now cornering around to answer the phone.
“Hi..Yunnie…” the voice was unusually cheerful.
“Jaejoong…”
“Yes? What’s the matter?”
It took a couple of seconds before Yunho speak again.
“Where are you now?” Yunho asked firmly and composed.
“Umm…I…I’m…at Yoochun’s now! We…are…um doing homework together…” come Jaejoong’s hesitant reply.
“At this time of the night?”
“uh…y-yeah…”
The expression on Yunho’s face hardened. He gritted his teeth in anger. There is no way that Jaejoong is doing homework when he is right in front of Yunho’s eyes, going out to a some sort of place with other person than he is supposed to, which is Yunho only.
One conclusion hit Yunho hard on the head; Jaejoong is lying to him. But why? Is he…cheating on Yunho?
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The main door slammed shut quietly and Jaejoong is greeted by the darkness of the mansion. It’s eleven of the night, of course it’s dark. As Jaejoong stumbled searching for the light switch, the table lamp of the living room is on, revealing Yunho sitting crossed-leg on the couch. Jaejoong nearly screamed in shocked but quickly retreated when he realized who it was.
“You scared me!” Jaejoong said as he approached Yunho. He sat on Yunho’s lap and lean against the warm inviting chest but Yunho didn’t react. Instead, he just pushed Jaejoong off of him and stood up firmly. “Why?” Jaejoong was bewildered. He wrapped his arms around Yunho’s chest and rested his cheek against his back.
“Tell me, where were you?” the voice uttered was cold and unfriendly at all. Jaejoong dropped his arms in confusion as Yunho turned to face him. He grasped Jaejoong’s wrist as he tugged onto him violently. He clenched his palm tightly around Jaejoong’s wrist causing the shorted to whimper in pain.
“Y-You’re hurting me…” Jaejoong said softly and attempted to uncoil Yunho’s hand with his other free hand.
“I saw you,” it brought attention to Jaejoong. He looked upward to face Yunho. The dark brown orbs pierce into Jaejoong’s one. Jaejoong couldn’t spot anything in those orbs but anger, fury and jealously. “I saw you today. Cheating on me,”
“What? I didn’t! What are you implying?” Jaejoong was totally bewildered.
“You lied to me. Don’t deny it when I saw it with my own two eyes,” Yunho pushed Jaejoong harshly onto the couch and hovered on top before Jaejoong could even react. He pinned the slim hands atop of the other’s head as he devours Jaejoong’s lips harshly. Jaejoong struggled with his might to get the man off of him but to no avail; the older man is much stronger than him.
Yunho bit hardly on Jaejoong’s lips when they refused to open. Jaejoong could taste the metallic blood taste on his mouth. Unsatisfied, Yunho ripped of Jaejoong’s shirt until it was completely torn off. “You are mine! When I said mine, you only belong to me!” Yunho spat as he bit on Jaejoong’s jaw line. His hands are roaming to feel the skin that is rightfully his. Unknown to him, tears had found their way to escape Jaejoong’s eyes.
With the last remaining ounce of energy, Jaejoong pushed Yunho away from his and attempted to run away, only to have Yunho tugging back at his wrist again. “Why Jaejoong? Why? Am I not enough?”
“Please let me explain…” the words were uttered by the swollen and bleeding lips. Silence encouraged Jaejoong to continue. With tears brimming down, he said “He is just a friend and I--”
“Friend?!” Yunho snorted loudly causing Jaejoong to feel fear. “I don’t see friends being that close with each other!” He rubbed his forehead after screaming, feeling dizzy suddenly when knowing that your beloved is cheating and lying on you when you had given him everything of your life. “I gave you everything, Jaejoong. I gave my life to you the moment I fell in love with you. I even worked hard so that you will live the life that you wanted. But is this what I get from you?” Yunho felt very frustrated especially when he returned home late at night from work only to know that the person he expect waiting for him is going out with someone else.
“Please listen to me…” Jaejoong held his sobs in. “I--”
“What?! You want to tell me that you want to run away with him and dumped me off because he is richer than me?!”
Jaejoong gasped, extremely shocked. “Is that how you see me as?”
“Yes! Why?! That’s the truth, isn’t it?!”
“Stop it!”
“Why did you deny it when you know it’s true?!” The throbbing pain in Yunho’s head increased.
“I said stop it! Why are you insulting me like this?! Isn’t it’s you who was like that?! You are the one who cheated on me, right? That’s why you blamed me to cover up your mistake! Tell me how many bitches have you slept with?! You gave me reasons that you have to go for work but behind my back you were fucking with some random women---”
Jaejoong’s sentence was held midway when Yunho’s palm made contact with Jaejoong’s cheek hard. The impact send Jaejoong’s face to the left and leave a long cut on Jaejoong’s lips. Yunho was shocked at what he had done. His eyes widened to their fullest extent as he couldn’t believe what he had done to his beloved lover.
Slowly, Jaejoong retreated and looked directly into Yunho’s eyes. Tears flowing fast down from both men’s eyes. “Baby…” with shaking hand, Yunho tried to reach to Jaejoong’s face. But quickly Jaejoong backed away. Shoulders hunched up and down furiously as labored breath escaped his mouth. His cheek tainted with a blood-red mark. “Baby…I…”
It went to quick when Jaejoong threw Yunho’s ring off his finger to Yunho’s face and ran upstairs to his room. Yunho closed his eyes when the ring hit his face. Blurry image appeared when he processed what had happened minutes ago.
Bending down, he took the ring into his palm and clutched it. Tears made their way once again as he finally realized what he had done to his lover. Not long after, soft ringing phone could be heard. He searched for the sound and found Jaejoong’s phone lying on the floor. Without much hesitation, he flipped the expensive phone open and noticed the ‘one new message’ word blinking before his eyes.
‘From: Changminnie ^^
Received: 12.18am, Monday, 11th May 2009
JaeJoongie!! I am so happy! The anniversary celebration went well. Kibummie accepted my proposal… He said he liked the necklace you chose very much. We are getting engaged! All thanks to you for planning all the things! You are my bestest buddy I’ve ever have.
By the way, sorry that I disturbed you this late at night. I just couldn’t content my happiness. Thanks again, shortie!’
The phone dropped with a soft thud to the floor. “What…” It was all too much for Yunho to take at once. He couldn’t believe this. He blamed Jaejoong without enough prove.
Yunho’s knees went weak. He stumbled backward and was lucky to have the couch to break his fall. He cradled his face into his palms and screamed loudly.
Loud crash sound from upstairs caught his attention. “Jaejoong!” He rushed to the stairs and to the room where he knew Jaejoong would be. Yunho turned the knob open but was unsuccessful when the door was locked from inside. Loud crash was heard again and Yunho was feeling very worried by each second that passed. He impatiently knocked on the door and said softly, “Baby…Open up please. Let me in… Listen, I am sorry---”
An object was thrown at the door, startling Yunho as the object made contact with the wood door, “Baby, open the door please… I'm sorry. I was stupid. Open up, please…” Without him knowing, wet liquid rivers his cheek. “You know how stupid I can be…so open up…” his voice turned hoarse as he cried silently.
Jaejoong’s loud sobs echoed from the inside as sound of things after things crashing and clanking against the floor followed. Yunho couldn’t imagine what it is like inside. But one thing he knew well is Jaejoong when he cried. His cheeks will reddened to the color of rose, stiff but still as beautiful as he is. His nose blood-red at the tip and his eyes will normally turn to a small slit as wet tears dripped endlessly. But to Yunho, Jaejoong’s cry is a nightmare. He hated when Jaejoong cried especially when it was caused by him alone. He had vowed to himself once that he would never make Jaejoong cry but in the end, he still did and he hates himself for that.
Yunho couldn’t do anything now. He slides himself against the wall and closed his eyes. He never felt so tired and worn out like this.
And slowly, he fell asleep to Jaejoong’s loud hiccups.
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The morning came fast than it usually did. Yunho opened his eyes. His back ached like hell and his legs feel numb. But he ignored it all as he stood up in attempt to open the door close to him. He was surprised when the door wasn’t locked.
He pushed the door forward and was once again surprised to the surrounding. It was a complete mess. Pillows and bed covers were not on where it was supposed to be. Broken pieces of glasses decorate the floor. Papers were everywhere. The make-up table is oddly empty as all the contents were thrown to the floor too. At one corner of the room, a piece of unzipped luggage is resting on the ground. Yunho suddenly felt his worse fear knocking his heart. Stepping carefully towards the luggage, he peeked in but the bag was empty while near it was countless pieces of Jaejoong’s cloth.
A piece of paper on the coverless bed caught Yunho’s eyes. He took it and read the content,
‘It was stupid when all of the things in this room weren’t mine. I feel that I was just using your money for my benefit. But you should know that I love you not because of your money. I want you to believe that I love you because I really do love you. But after what you said last night, I could feel right inside of me that you regretted taking me in to live with you. Who wouldn’t, right? I eat a lot, I shop a lot, I sleep a lot, I whine a lot, and I cry a lot. I was stupid too, everyone hates stupid people. So that’s why I'm moving out. I feel that you wouldn’t need me anymore. But as stupid as I am, I love you very damn much. I want you to believe that. I love you. I love Jung Yunho. I love the handsome Jung Yunho very much!
I will try not to come back again if I could afford to not missing you very much.
I think its goodbye, right?’
At the bottom end of the paper was written Love, Kim Jaejoong but directly above it was scratches of ink covering the sweet nickname Yunho usually used for addressing Jaejoong – BabyJae.
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Jaejoong wandered around the big city, not knowing where to go without his wallet inside his pocket. With only a pair of pants and Yunho’s cheapest shirt he could fine inside his closet, which cost two expensive Prada bags no less, Jaejoong doesn’t know where else he could go.
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Yunho panicked to no end. Sweats trickled down his forehead as he tried to calm himself down to think of something. But to no avail, the image of Jaejoong dirty with mud and sleeping near a dumpsite keep playing inside his mind. The image of Jaejoong six years ago flashed to his mind. Jaejoong was a mess, skinny and unloved. Yunho doesn’t want that to repeat again especially when Jaejoong is now his.
“Boss, we searched the west and east side city but we couldn’t find him,” Siwon informed.
“Find him! Dammit!”
“Yes, boss!” Siwon gestured the train of men in black to keep searching. They leave Yunho alone inside the living room.
His last night’s words echoed by itself inside his mind,
‘What?! You want to tell me that you want to run away with him and dumped me off because he is richer than me?!’
“No baby no… I didn’t mean that. I never did. Oh god… baby, come back please… I'm sorry…. Baby, please…” he cried again. “Don’t leave me alone. I couldn’t live without you. You know that… So come back to me please… I don’t care if you eat, sleep, shop, whine and cry a lot. Please...”
Yunho clutched the ring he gave Jaejoong close to his heart. It was the ring that holds so many sweet memories between them. Yunho gave him the ring during Jaejoong’s 19th birthday and he had promised to Jaejoong using the ring that they would get married as soon as Jaejoong finished college. Yunho had the matching ring hooked in the necklace he is wearing. He remembered when Jaejoong suggested he should wear the ring by the necklace because Jaejoong didn’t trust Yunho to wear it without losing it the next day.
Yunho smiled faintly remembering that memory. “I lost it, baby… I lost the ring… Come back and search it for me… You would know where I put the ring. You always did…” he cried desperately as he clutched both ring in his palms. “Please…”
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It was late midnight. The breeze danced wildly in the air. The sky showed that it would rain in a just few moments.
The cold chilly air hit Jaejoong’s skin mercilessly. And the place he is now didn’t help him either in keeping him warm. He was back again to where he was once six years ago. This is the place where homeless people stayed for their nights. And Jaejoong is one of them.
Jaejoong disgusted for being in this alley. All of the people here aren’t friendly. They kept drinking bottles and bottles of alcoholic. The smell wasn’t good either. It smells like rotten corpse. But Jaejoong didn’t have any other choice than to stay at the dark alley. He squatted down, hugging his knees close to his chest at the far corner of the place, hoping not to be noticed.
Loud thunder erupted, startling him but he tried ignoring it as soon as possible. He had always hated thunder but at the same time he likes it. He hated it because it doesn’t sound good and it always reminded him of sad memories but he likes it because Yunho would always hugged him tight whenever it erupted. Sometimes, Yunho would rock him to sleep saying, ‘I'm here,’, ‘Don’t be afraid’, ‘Hug me tight if you’re scared,’ repeatedly and he would then kissed him in the forehead until he was fast asleep.
That memory alone brought tears to Jaejoong’s eyes without him knowing it. He realized, now, there would be no more hugs, kisses, lullaby from Yunho and he had to get used to it before it ate Jaejoong up.
Jaejoong forced his eyes to sleep. He really needed sleep but he just couldn’t. The rain poured down finally and Jaejoong hugged his knees tight again. Suddenly the flashed of Yunho’s slapping his cheek appeared.
“It still hurts…” Jaejoong brought his hand up and caress his cheeks. “It still hurts badly… Why does it feel really hurt?” he silently shed tears.
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The rain water hit the windscreen furiously until he couldn’t see the road. It’s nearly been a complete one day, 24 hours since Yunho talked to Jaejoong, 10 straight hours since he drove off from the mansion’s garage and find Jaejoong himself. He felt restless.
The gang told him they couldn’t find him. It requires a good harsh scolds and a couple of threats before his men start to find Jaejoong again.
“Where are you?! You’ll catch a cold if you don’t return now… Everyone knows how you would throw tantrum when you’re sick. Return now please…” he whispers to no one in particular.
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“Yunnie…” Jaejoong’s mouth unconsciously mumbled in his sleep. “Cold, Yunnie…”
It was normal for Jaejoong to whisper Yunho’s name every night in his sleep. Yunho would usually wake up and tuck Jaejoong neatly so that no more complain would be uttered by his mouth.
Sensing no response, Jaejoong whispered again, “Yunnie, cold…” in hope that Yunho will tuck him under the blanket. “Yunnie…” he opened his eyes only to be greeted by the dark atmosphere, disappointment written on his face.
Unknown to him, his words gain the attention of two drunken men at the alley. They approached Jaejoong quietly.
One of them covered Jaejoong’s mouth with his palm while the other pushing Jaejoong onto the ground. Muffled screams could be heard. “Help!”
The other people at the alley heard Jaejoong’s plead but they ignored it as if it was just the air.
Jaejoong pushed the man off from him and ran away. He turned his face backwards and saw the two chasing after him.
But he doesn’t know that there is a sharp, pointy metal in front and when he already faced in front, the metal slash through his chest, leaving a long, deep cut on his chest. Blood trickled down and silence engulfs the surrounding. Jaejoong was dumbfounded for a while as he stared at the cut. Then he collapsed.
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It’s been three days since Jaejoong’s disappearance and world couldn’t get any worse. The mansion emits dull aura. The organization is completely down. The company is facing serious problem from Yunho’s reluctant of working. While Yunho refused to eat, rest and return home as he just driving off to find Jaejoong back.
Yunho stopped his car near a park.
Three days.
Three days since he return home.
Three days without Jaejoong. Yunho felt incomplete and insecure. He felt mentally abused since he has no one to take care of him, since he has no one to remind him of breakfast, lunch, dinner, since he had no one to massage his aching body due to work, since he has no one to kiss and whisper ‘I love you’ to every night.
“I miss you…” he traced the carving on Jaejoong’s ring, ‘Jung Yunho’s’.
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After three days, Yunho has the feeling of returning back home. He hadn’t had proper meal for these few days. He hadn’t even had a nice shower. The clothes he is wearing now was the one he wore for the three days ago.
His mind drifted to Jaejoong. ‘Is he eating well? Is he fine? Is he sleeping well? Is he missing me?’
Yunho finally stopped his car in front the entrance door. The entrance door is dark. Only the moon’s light illuminating the front door. For a moment, Yunho felt that he really needed some good long hour of sleep.
He walked lifelessly to the door, fumbling with the keys until he realized someone was sitting, hugging knees by the door. Yunho narrowed his eyes to catch the better look of the person.
His eyes widened when he realized who it was. He rushed to the person and grabbed him by the shoulder. The person was lifeless. Even through the darkness, Yunho could see the pale color of the person’s face. “Jaejoong! Is it you?” Yunho cradled the face between his palms.
Slowly, the person’s eyes cracked open revealing a pair of dark, ever so beautiful orbs. “Oh god! It’s you!” Yunho brought Jaejoong’s body fitting into his arms and kissed the messy hair countless of times. Moving downwards, he traced his lips to every inch of Jaejoong’s face almost impatiently. “Goodness…” Yunho choked with his own tears as the body returned into his embrace.
“Yunnie…” Jaejoong said weakly. His voice was soft that it was barely audible. “Y-Yunnie…” Yunho’s shirt drenched with the hot tears. “I miss you so much… I couldn’t sleep well thinking of you. I wanted to stay mad at you but I just couldn’t. And I wanted to run away from you but I just missed you so much. I don’t know what to do. I miss you. I thought that you would miss me too but you never come to get me. I was hoping that you would forgive me and bring me home but you never search for me so I thought you were still mad at me…” he said between sobs.
“No baby… I would never be mad at you,” Yunho said, “You never know that I was going crazy when you disappear. I went everywhere searching for you. I really did,” Yunho squeezed the little body in his arms. “I was missing you so badly. At first I thought I was going to die when you said you’re moving away… I'm sorry, baby… I'm really sorry… Oh god… I love you, baby…” he buried his face on Jaejoong’s neck as he cried loudly. “Baby, when you say I regretted taking you in, you were completely wrong. I never regretted having you, in fact I was thankful that I found someone like you. I never regret, baby, never…”
Silence filled the air and suddenly Jaejoong’s body felt limp.
“Baby?” Yunho said when Jaejoong didn’t respond. “Baby?” he shook Jaejoong’s weak body slightly and only then he realized it was burning hot.
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Yunho went frantic. Not just he finally realized that Jaejoong is having cold but he only realized the cut on Jaejoong’s chest. He never felt this guilty in his life before. The doctor had long gone saying that Jaejoong is just having mere cold and the cut isn’t as serious as it looks. But Yunho didn’t trust that.
Yunho caught the slight stir movement on the couch. He was too panic to carry Jaejoong to the bedroom so he just put him on the couch, covered him with thick blanket and wet towel on his forehead.
Yunho took the flailing hand in his palm as the other had brushing off the dirt that still on Jaejoong’s face. He ordered the maids to prepare some hot food for Jaejoong, thinking that Jaejoong might be craving for something later. “Yunnie…”
“Yes, baby?” Yunho said as he helped Jaejoong sit leaning on his chest. He carefully placed his arms around Jaejoong’s bare waist so that it would affect the bandaged cut.
But Jaejoong never continued his question. Yunho felt a little bit worry. “What’s wrong?” He turned Jaejoong around to face him. Jaejoong smiled, shaking ‘nothing’ as a return and cupped Yunho’s face. He planted a soft kiss on Yunho’s lips as stream of tears escaped his eyes. Yunho frowned but seeing his lover cry, he shed tears too. “Baby, did it hurt?” his right hand palming the cheek he once hit.
Jaejoong forced a smile. “It hurt a lot. Once, I thought my neck is broken when you hit me that hard…” he joked and laughed, trying to lighten the atmosphere. However, Yunho’s frown hardens and guilt written on his face.
“I'm sorry…” Yunho admitted and pressed his nose against the said cheek. “I didn’t mean to hit you,”
“It’s okay. I think that’s what I can get from such a jealous lover as you are…”
“No! It’s no okay! It won’t happen again. I will never hit you ever again…”
“That’s what you said before you actually do it…” Jaejoong mumbled.
Yunho frowned again, feeling guilty washed over him, “I promised I won’t…” he cupped Jaejoong’s face and shared a passionate kiss with Jaejoong. Between the kiss, Yunho managed to unhooked his necklace, took out Jaejoong’s ring and slide it in into Jaejoong’s ring finger, all done with eyes closed. “Don’t ever take it off no matter how mad you are….” He whispered between the kisses. “…because it would remind you who you belonged to…”
“Eung…”
“I'm sorry again, baby…”
“No… I won’t forgive you…” Jaejoong pouted naughtily.
“Thank you for forgiving me…”
“Hey, I said I didn’t forgive you,” he slapped Yunho’s arm playfully and received a playful bite on his nose from Yunho. “Hey!” he pushed Yunho away only to have him nibbling his ear. Jaejoong giggled heartedly.
It’s been a tough days, isn’t it?
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Its been a tough day for me, that’s why I'm feeling a bit…emo. But anyway, Comment please? I deserve it…right? Like how Yun deserve Jae. And Jae deserve Yun!
To autumnchibiJJ : Yes, I'm from there! Good to know that there is someone being attached to Yunjae apart from me and my friend. So, where do you live? Add me on so we can talk further…^^